I Need A Heat That Forgives

Yesterday I started to feel sad and thoughts and emotions came back in a flood. But I had to go to work…and right after work I had “ladies night.” So I didn’t have time to process until 12am when I got a chance to talk to my husband.

Tears, tears and more tears just flowed as I told him how sad I was feeling…Sad and angry with my friend who abandoned our friendship almost 3 years ago…And sad that I am perceived as this big bad wolf that people cannot talk to…To the extent where they make it wrong for me to be me. Sad that I feel misunderstood…Sad that my other friend does not really understand how I feel…JUST SAD! I didn’t know how to process these emotions…Particularly my ill feelings towards my friend.

Communication…The Lifeline of any Relationship

These feelings are raging up inside of me! I thought I had put it behind me…I thought I was not bothered by it anymore…I thought I was good…Until today…When feelings of hurt, sadness and anger, created a fury of raging emotions that has me in a bad place. Have you ever felt ill towards a “good” person but in your mind they were a bad person because of what they did to you? Have you ever felt that all the good times that was shared, the fun memories, and closeness of the relationship was trampled, scared and tainted because of what someone else did to you?

Have you ever felt so hurt and betrayed by someone that the pain feels like someone just died? Have you ever given up hope? Given up on that person? Given up on that love because of how you feel?

Recipe 4

http://www.skinnytaste.com/2010/02/spinach-lasagna-rolls.html

OK, I have to get back on my healthy recipe find! Next up, I have decided to try this lasagna roll that I actually had the pleasure of eating at one of my friend's house. It looks simple enough and its a vege dish! Something I have been trying to eat more of!

Happily After Giving Birth - 10 things they don't tell you

Please forgive the language...But this is a MUST read for those of us yet to have a baby!!!

http://www.pregnantchicken.com/pregnant-chicken-blog/2010/9/23/happily-after-giving-birth-10-things-they-dont-tell-you.html?fwcc=1&fwcl=1&fwl

A Future Goal - Marriage Ministry

OK, I am really excited because I think I might have stumbled upon something I can do in my spear time. Pre-Marital counseling!! Now anyone who knows me should know how passionate I am about marriage, and promoting the wellbeing of healthy and strong relationships in the Lord! I have often thought about getting a degree in Marriage and Family Therapy just for fun…So I could have the skill set needed to offer professional help. But then I didn’t want to take something I was naturally passionate about and turn it into a job that might cause me job stress…And then I grow weary…