I Need A Heat That Forgives

Yesterday I started to feel sad and thoughts and emotions came back in a flood. But I had to go to work…and right after work I had “ladies night.” So I didn’t have time to process until 12am when I got a chance to talk to my husband.

Tears, tears and more tears just flowed as I told him how sad I was feeling…Sad and angry with my friend who abandoned our friendship almost 3 years ago…And sad that I am perceived as this big bad wolf that people cannot talk to…To the extent where they make it wrong for me to be me. Sad that I feel misunderstood…Sad that my other friend does not really understand how I feel…JUST SAD! I didn’t know how to process these emotions…Particularly my ill feelings towards my friend.

Communication…The Lifeline of any Relationship

These feelings are raging up inside of me! I thought I had put it behind me…I thought I was not bothered by it anymore…I thought I was good…Until today…When feelings of hurt, sadness and anger, created a fury of raging emotions that has me in a bad place. Have you ever felt ill towards a “good” person but in your mind they were a bad person because of what they did to you? Have you ever felt that all the good times that was shared, the fun memories, and closeness of the relationship was trampled, scared and tainted because of what someone else did to you?

Have you ever felt so hurt and betrayed by someone that the pain feels like someone just died? Have you ever given up hope? Given up on that person? Given up on that love because of how you feel?

Recipe 4

http://www.skinnytaste.com/2010/02/spinach-lasagna-rolls.html

OK, I have to get back on my healthy recipe find! Next up, I have decided to try this lasagna roll that I actually had the pleasure of eating at one of my friend's house. It looks simple enough and its a vege dish! Something I have been trying to eat more of!

Happily After Giving Birth - 10 things they don't tell you

Please forgive the language...But this is a MUST read for those of us yet to have a baby!!!

http://www.pregnantchicken.com/pregnant-chicken-blog/2010/9/23/happily-after-giving-birth-10-things-they-dont-tell-you.html?fwcc=1&fwcl=1&fwl

A Future Goal - Marriage Ministry

OK, I am really excited because I think I might have stumbled upon something I can do in my spear time. Pre-Marital counseling!! Now anyone who knows me should know how passionate I am about marriage, and promoting the wellbeing of healthy and strong relationships in the Lord! I have often thought about getting a degree in Marriage and Family Therapy just for fun…So I could have the skill set needed to offer professional help. But then I didn’t want to take something I was naturally passionate about and turn it into a job that might cause me job stress…And then I grow weary…

My First Baby Class – Preparing for Postpartum

One of the things that hurts my feelings in life is that people don’t prepare you for what lies ahead…Whether its about marriage, sex, or having a baby…People are often not truthful about their experiences which in turns inhibits our ability to help minister to each other. We inadvertently deny our relationships a unique opportunity to grow closer and stronger when we hold back our experiences. Many times pride steps in the way of sharing with others…Often guised as “I am a private person…or I can’t trust anyone.” The reality is…my pride prevents me from admitting I have problems in the present. I can talk all day long about the past in some cases...But talking about it in the here and now is a differently story...As I think about post-partum and the changes that await me, I want to learn to let go of that pride…And be honest with myself and those around me. If I am suffering I want you to know…so you can help me…whether its through your prayers, or words of wisdom and encouragement. But that cannot happen if pride is in the way.

A blog post on dealing with postpartum

http://talkbirth.me/2011/01/18/planning-for-postpartum/

This is a great blog post about preparing for postpartum. I plan to take these practical suggestions!

Seeking to be Accountable

When I started my blog, one of my motivations was to use the day to day stories of my life as a source of inspiration and encouragement to my readers. I wanted to share with you the “real me.” I wanted you to see me for who I am…My struggles, my tears, and my most joyous and precious moments. I wanted you to see that I am a real person, just like you…striving to live day by day according to the plan God has laid out for me.

I also wanted a platform to talk about marriage (one of my most favorite things to talk about!). I work very hard to have a happy home…And whatever I learn along the way I want to be able to share with you…Actually, I have been thinking for a long time that I wanted to branch off and start another blog that is specifically about marriage. For some reason (maybe laziness) I have not done so yet! But it is my hope that I can have a professional relationship/family/marriage blog. Pray for me that I would find the motivation to pursue this little dream of mine. It has been on my heart for over two years now. 

We are...???

February 23, 2012


Did you know that the first two weeks of pregnancy you are not really pregnant. Well doctors calculate your due date based on the first day of your last period. So you essentially get two weeks for free! One for your period, and then the days following your period when you are ovulating. I had this nifty app on my iPad called “my days” which helped me to remember when my period was due. I was never good at keep track of these things. Anyway, once you enter your period it showed the days you were ovulating and then highlighted the day itself when ovulation took place. So I decided to use the app to my advantage.

I didn’t want to be like those crazy people you see on TV where they have a calendar, with a bell to tell them when to have sex…And then have sex whether they wanted to or not. But at the same time, I wanted to at least know when I “should” have sex…It was no pressure…It just created awareness. The same type of awareness that is helpful when you know when your period is coming and you are prepared for it.